2.0.1.0

as 2010 is coming, i would like to make a new hopes and resolution for it...

* give me more spirit to study and get better score for my examination... i really hope so that i will achieve my target to get 3.5 and above

* 2009 resolution that i must lose my weight seems like is not work out..so i have to do something more to get my ideal weight..

* now it seems that i have to be more aware with the food that I'll be taken... my allergic is getting worst and i really have to take care of my food

* my 2009 resolution is to find my mr right guy and it seems that i had found him, sum1 that had open my heart again to fall in love... thank u so much for being there..i hope our relationship will last forever

As 2010 arrives I think about the past, present, and future. I look at my life, and reflect on what I have accomplished. The past is the past and there is nothing I can do about it

*The present is a time where I can look at where I am, and where I am going.

* I hope in the future that I make the right choices. be a better person and having a better time with the better people.. The future I have no control over, because I don't know what is ahead.

* May 2010 bring happiness, health, and prosperity...

Good bye 2009, welcome 2010

semester break

wahh.its been ages that i never update my blog..i've been busy with my exam..stress and stress i just leave it to Allah S.w.t hope that i can get whatever that i wish for this sem... after clearance in Unisel i went to my aunty's house in sepang.. spent my leisure time with my cousins ,parents, aunties and uncles...really spent my day we went to shop and shop in ALAMANDA putrajaya and also all around KL..
after that go back to jb all along with my cousin aliah..because we had a plan to be a tour guide for my aunty's fren "aunty safiyah from south africa to a road trip to singapore..so we went for a sightseeing in Sentosa Island, Esplanade hall, Marina bay, And merlion..and we really2 enjoy it..just take a look for all the picture taken...

christmast tree in harbour front


merlion


at the gift shop in sentosa island


bus trip to singapore



high jump in singapore


with my cousin aliah


a view of esplanade


with aunty safiyah - a view of an eye on singapore

time to strike

after spending so much time at home i feel reluctant to go back to unisel..huhu...after 10 days at home, spending my time with my parents, my naughty cat and my lazy bro..huhu so its time for me to go back to unisel to strive for excellent...
i almost finished with my revision for only two subject macro and sociology..because there are too much to cover but too little time...huhu but i try to manage my time to cover all the chapter for all subject because i really hope to score for this sem.. at least for 3.5 and above.. i know its not that easy because i have two killer subject for this sem Human resource planning and staffing and also industrial relation but i will do my best to score and strive for an excellent..so wish me luck k...i want to prove to my parents that i can do it..
if my bro can get 4.0 for about 4 sem why cant i???? so that will be my inspiration to work harder...

so enuff for now..want to start packing my stuff..huhu

dilema cinta

Seberapa salahkah diriku
Hingga kau sakiti aku begitu menusukku
Inikah caramu membalas
Aku yang selalu ada saat kau terluka

Seberapa hinanya diriku
Hingga kau ludahi semua yang ku beri untukmu
Tak ada satu pun perasaan yang mampu membuatku begitu terluka

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Telah ku coba segala cara
‘Tuk bahagiakan kamu
Merebut hatimu
Namun tak semudah yang ku bayangkan
Bila kau tak inginkan ku ’tuk di sisimu

Tak pernah kurasakan sebelumnya
Menginginkan dirinya hingga ku tak kuasa
Meyakini hatiku bahwa ku mampu berlalu

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

Namun ku terlanjur mencintai dirimu
Terlambat bagiku pergi darimu
Bagiku terlalu indah perasaan itu
Tak mudah untukku menjauh darimu

exam fever

emm now i think i can breathing..two presentation and group assignment was done..and i just have to do a report for my presntation..but suddenly after everybody was excited to go back home for hari raya aji..we got another database assignment n i think we couldn't did that only for 2 days..because we r not it student so she cant expect for us to settle the job just for several days.. i dun know why this sem is the most stressful sem n it was really exhausted...

because of that for only this month, i had watch almost all new movies in teh cinema.. starting from pisau cukur then 2012 n then phobia..huhu but enuff for that.. i have to focus with my exam..final is just around the corner..6 dec begin and end at 14 dec..then hooray..
but i'm going back for study week to jb next week..so excited about that..almost 8 weeks i'm not coming home..so counting days to go back..huhu

homesickk

2012 was a fantastic and marvellous english movie for 2009 and i think u guys should watch it... for the first time in my life watching movie in the front sit of cinema, even though my back is pain and headache but i think its worth it...really and the cinema was full house with all the people who was so excited with this movie..at least it could release my tension and take away all my stress for almost three hours...
huhu yeah i feel so stressed today until i can't focus in class at all... i dun know what she talking about n first time i just sat down quietly until most of my classmates wondering why i'm not making any noise in class...huhu i really miss home, miss abah n mak, miss my kitten, my bedroom n everything at home..i miss jb ..huhu homesick..


n today is my abah's birthday n i would like to wish him happy 57th birthday...may god bless him n u r the best abah in the world..the one who really knows what his daughters want , the one who understand what his daughter need and the one who comfort me whenever i feel down or out..i love u abah n i really miss u..thank u for everything.. sorry i can't going back home to celebrate it with u because i have something more important to do here...classes, assignments and presentation...huhuhu..its ok i'll be back on hari raye aji..



so..time to go class..huhu i just hope everything will be fine...

too many works too little time

n now i realise what does it means by too many works too little time..why??? because all this week we have to submit all those assignments but those assignments was not even started.. n i have to sacrifice for not coming home to celbrate abah's bday this coming friday... but what i can do is just to smile smile n smile... only god knows what my feelings is.i just hope i have that strength to survive here and i have break my record to stay in unisel for almost one month..huhu congratulation.... k stop the crap..time to do assignments.

bile lah semue penyeksaan ni nk berakhir, n sem 4 ni nk berakhir??huhu

d.i.n.n.e.r

for the first I've joined my Faculty dinner at Hilton petaling Jaya...so far its good and i really have fun with my classmates...so just look at all the pictures k..


with yb Haizal n afik



kak erna , nad , dayah, nadia , dib n shida


us with madam ayu rita


with our guest artist farah af2


mior, dib shida n nad


nad, dayah, nadia, diba n shida


me with nadia

t.e.a.r.s

Have you ever had one of those days that you just felt like crying, everything seems to get to you for no reason. Today must be my day I woke up feeling fine but out of no where I just felt like breaking down crying, I feel sad today. The clouds have been hanging around for almost a week now, every once in while the sun will try to shine through but it never seem to stay long. I think maybe my mind is trying to tell me something, that maybe I just need a good cleansing of the soul, let me cry for all the reasons that I cant explain,
I hate myself for being too weak and can’t stop crying for the same matters for the rest of my life. I dun know why I’ve been too sensitive today…just becoz one person who said to me that I’m such a boring person, “ x pandai mengayat , X lemah lembut and x manje sbb tu owang xnak”.. is that a criteria yang laki nak..sory ah I’m just being myself k..i’m not that kind of gurl yg hidung x mancung pipi tersorong2 or tergedik2 nampak jantan mcam kera kene belacan… n ia lebih menyakitkan ati bile orang yang ckp tu owang yg rapat ngn kite.. tah lah kan mulot orang kite x bley nak tutop… I just want to forget it..aduyaii nape lah bende ni x penah settle..i just want to get rid of the stupid feelings…I keep talking to myself that I am a strong person and I’m happy with my life but sometime I have to admit I just be lying to myself… n tonight i was drown into tears n I can’t stop it..huhu I dun know why I’ve been too weak …ayoyoyoyo

done...

Huhu..one job is done…huhu our car wash event was successfully done..huhu even though it was quite tiring but it was fun…we can know who can done a job, who just sit and talk, who just sit and pointed or instruct other people to do her work,,.. Thank u for all bhrm students who give us support and cooperate with each other to wash car and motorcycles....and also for our lecturer tuan haji for his sponsor and support… to all customer who sent their motor cycles and cars.. thank u so much…really appreciate it..

now busy with test this saturday, and faculty dinner on 4th nov...hhuhu
dun know what to wear lah..theme urban batik but i'm thinking to wearing dress lah..huhu

destiny

I almost happy nowadays…I mean I am happy with my life right now..Even though I’m quite busy with tons of assignments, test and so on but at least I dun have time to feel lonely or miserable or something like that… yeah I know n I realise most of my friends or people around me always ask me about the same question “dib, dah ade bf lom?? “ xkan xde kot dh besar ko skrg” yeah I know maybe some of the people thought me that maybe I am abnormal because in da age of 20 I still dun find any special sum1 in my life…
Actually I am sick to think bout it.. why I say it so..Because I have try and error so many times until I fed up n thinking of just letting go.. I know sum times I think that should I anti guys or sumthing but I know I can’t judge all guys like that so I just let it be..n leave it to ALLAH S.w.t.. because I believe in destiny.. jodoh pertemuan kat tangan tuhan…
Sometimes, I can’t deny the feelings when I sat all alone n thinking when is everything gonna to change but I dun get an answer so I dun want to waste my time to think bout it so I just let it go..n now I know the way to make me feel better I just think positive n I never regret with my destiny.. being alone is better than to be hurt… because I still have my supportive abah n mak, abang2 , kazen yang always take care of me n friends yang always make my life feel complete..so I dun have to having sum1 right now..biarkan jek lah die berlalu..yang penting I have to work hard to achieve my dreams… make my family proud of me n berbakti to my dad n my mom before to think for sumthing that not worth it ..huhu

memories

If ur fren can leave u w/o giving any reason,
don't ever think of begging 4 mercy
If ur fren d0esn't appreciate u as much as urs,
just let da hell out from ur frend list
If ur fren can throw u & da memories away as simple as dat,
dun waste ur tears 2 recall th0se shit
If ur fren can pretend n0t 2 kn0w u of sudden,
dun be stupid calling da name out loud
If th0se stuff make u remember back ur pains,kill it with laugh that u deserve 2 feel
It's really n0t w0rth at all 4 mourning da fake friendship
If friendship hurts,then friend shift.

extend

i have to extend my holiday to Tuesday..huhu my dad is still stranded in budget terminal Jakarta airport...there was an accident so they do not allowed any flight to fly off...huhu n i still have to wait for my dad ...i dun know whether i have time to go for medical check up tonight..huhu

car washhh

wahh dh lme x update blog..I've been busy lately with my assignment, classes and my next event ..huhu our group event for subject sociology of work is to organize car wash for fun that will be held on 27 october 2009 at parking lot fsp..so to all unisellian yang ade kereta and motor..sile lah anta cuci di sane...only rm3 for motorcycle and rm5 for car..hehehehhe...promote2..hehhehe




emm i'm home..but my abah was not at home so i just stay with my bro n mom..huhu emm abah mintak balek ari isnin but i ahve class on that day so i'm in dilemma to going back on sunday or monday..huhu but i think i have to do some medical check up...i was in flu almost a week...n some time it was hard to breathing..i am really afraid if i had an asthma or something related to breathing problem...i just hope everything will be fine..huhu

emmm it just almost one more month to final exam but it seems that i dun prepare any yet and a ton of assignments that i never touch..huhu ayoyo so now it seems that too many works too little time..huhu so dib be prepared..huhu

back again

yess i'm going back again to jb this weekend..but my abah is going to jakarta this weekend....huhu i miss u abah ..die nk gi outstation lak...hhuhu but its ok lah if its for ur our good...
emm talking bout this week..i'm not feeling well...flu, migrain and stomach ache..n now it seems like i can't let my stomach empty..huhu its really pain man i dun want to be gastric..huhu ok lah now busy with my assignment..from day to day i dun get enough sleep and enough rest just to finish up my assignments..huhu

just hope everything will be fine as usual...and it will move smoothly ...

focus+work harder

a tons of assignment to do...and i still have to smile on it

one individual and one group assignment for industrial relations subject...
one individual and group assignment for hr staffing and planning
one group activities for sociology of work
one group assignment for business computing to create database.
and maybe another group assignment for business communication 3

its about one month and the half for final examination and the end of semester 4... but tons of assignment and interview that we never either plan about what to do..ayo yo

i really have to stay focus and work harder for it before my parents have to sent me to tanjung rambutan or tampoi... i really hope all the group member will give a fully contribution about this...

kembali pulang

After bout three years missing in action he suddenly came back to my life… To seek for apologies and recall back what had happened at the past… why must he come back now??? Just for hurting me for another one more time or he just want to say sorry because he felt guilty of what he had done to me …

I had forget everything … two years was enough for me to make me turn over new leaf and forget everything maybe he had his own reason why he did that...but after we talked about it, it seems like he was looking down on me and thought like I still got crush on him and still love him and still waiting for him. Please man I have my pride k... N I’m not a type of person who u can easily hurt…I never let any guys to break my heart… I know it sounds horrible … because of one guy, I don’t put any trust to guys even though sum times he was sincere to me… but for me no men no cry k… I’ve been alone for 20 years so it was fine for me … I just want to focus with my studies right now because I believe in GOD... He has created a path for everyone we just have to believe in our destiny…

So for him, if u just came back to my life just want to make fun of me n be proud because u think that I was still waiting for u…huhu I think u’ve wrong I’m not that kind of idiot gurl anymore.. n for ur info I had erased all the memories long time ago.. so dun be “ perasan handsome” okay…I return ur call, n reply of your message just for the sake of friend n not more than that… so please dun make me feel annoying and irritated…

I’m going back home tomorrow..yeah I know it just about a week I’m here but this time I think I should have some rest to get maintenance for my screw loose in my brain…huhu it’s the better way before I’m freak out and people had to sent me to tampoi or tanjung rambutan…hahahha hope all the tense were recover when I get back here in unisel…

goodbye my fren....

Who would have thought we'd be best friends?
Who would have known on you I could depend?
Who could have saw it would end so fast?
Now our strong bond remains in the past.
You were there for me as long as it worked for you.
I never realized how much I depended on you.
You've gotten lost in someone who is not worth your time.
I guess along the way I forgot you weren't "mine".
Now the person I thought you were has left my sight...
I swear, I tried so hard to keep us strong, I held with all my might.
When I finally got the nerve to tell you how it made me feel,
you tried to keep your heart from seeing it was real.
You let me walk out of your life and you didn't even know.
I think inside you had convinced yourself I'd never go,
Everyone always says guys and girls can’t be just friends anymore.
We always used to laugh it off; I guess in our hearts we thought we were so sure...
Yet here I am, saying goodbye.
I gave it my all, I had to try,
and though I'm still around and you see me every now and again
soon you'll see... you've lost your best friend.
I'm sorry

Sunshine by Kahlen

spirit

i need to find my spirit...
i need to find my soul...
i need to find myself
because i know I've not being myself lately..huhu
i just need a strength to continue my studies..
to survive here
because I know i Can't quit
because i'm not a quitter
who easily give up with her life...

i love my parents
i love myself..
i don't want to hurt them...
oh god, please make me stronger
not to be hurt for small things
not to be shaken
I have to be strong

jaybee to unicell

now i'm back in unicell..10 pm last night arrive from 10 am in jb..huhu.it was a tiring day but not wonderful..huhu my friend and i were not feeling excited but only think about when we can finish our study and be graduated..

huhu seriously i lost my interest to study but i have to keep holding on..not to give up now..huhu 2 years to go...i just need a strength, a new hope, new resolution...

cuzzies...

with my cousin ari


perotku yg semakin membulat


with my cousin hasif hariri chippy yg dh lme x jumpe...dh besar2 budak2 ni


aliya gile yg dh makin mereng bile makan kuih raye banyak2

aunties2 yg dh kepenatan masak memasak

activity this hari rayer...
meet cousins, gossiping and makan, makan n makan..from the first day of hari raye i've build up my calories in my body..huhu..oh gosh xnak ckp byk..pipi pon dh tembam perot pun dh buncit dh...huhuhu
tinggal bpe ari jek before going back to jungle..emm assignment n x study langsung raye ni..aduyaiii

eid mubarak

our family raya picture for this year...


wearing kebaye this year..huhu


raye ni x meriah sangat lahh
but makan tetap meriah...
seperti biase every raye
dh berjaya naikkan berat badan...huhu
terrible owhhh..dh cube tahan nafsu makan pon
tetap tergode ngn kuih raye, kek n juadah2 yg lain...
really have to diet after this..puase 6 the best method i think...huhu

waiting forward for my mom laksa johor..huhu nyum2 make sure to have it before i'm going back ...

takbir bergema di malam raya

For things i did wrong,
for words might hurt,
for jokes u can't take,
for advice u can accept
& for attitudes u can't compromise ...
1001 apologies from the deepest of my heart...

hari raya cookies

finally, i had pass to bake some cookies for this hari raya...thanx to my aunties and my cousins who teach me to make some cornflakes cookies and chocolate chip for this hari raya..hahahha n i'm so glad that my dad like it..yeah because i learn to make some cookies for this hari raye is because of his request...
two days before i'm going back home to jb...my cousin n i went to Sogo, Jalan TAR, and MID VALLEY to do some last min shopping...so i had bought some orange tshirt heheh actually that particular brand for teenagers below 17years old..heheh 3 scarf, one for my mom, brooch, and the most wanted things that i've dream to buy is crocs sneakers for this hari raya..huhu



n now busy to clean up my room, hanging up the curtains , mop and so on..tomorrow will be busy to anyam ketupat..hehe actually x pandai pon anyam just tolong sambung ape yg my m0m dh wat...huhu

why??

i met him again... 4 ari berturut2 aku selalu ternampak die....kenape??? kenape bile kite nak lupekan seseorang die lah yg selalu muncul dalam hidup kite... kalo lah aku bley padamkan segalenye dalam hati ni dengan senang kan bagus... bile kite sayang seseorang n nak jumpe die..susah sangat nk terserempak , tapi bile xnak jumpe tiap2 hari ternampak..kuar2 jek nampak... n i think i'm strong...maybe becoz of my ego yg sangat tebal lah yang nampak aku kuat di mata orang...tapi hakikatnye hanya tuhan jek tau perasaan ni...aku rase nak menangis, tapi air mata xde...tapi aku tau aku sebenarnye menangis dalam hati...hati aku dh mati..empty dh....mungkin ni balasan tuhan kepadaku sebab menolak cinta orang..aku dh menolak cinta 3 laki dlm hidup aku... aku cuba untuk syg die, walaupun die x penah putus ase untuk dtg dlm hidup aku..cuba untuk menagih cinte tapi aku x bley tipu diri aku sendiri...aku masih mengejar or menanti cinta yang xpenah aku luahkan n die pun mungkin x penah terpk yang aku ske kat die... jumpe pon susah...tetapi hakikatnye die dh pon berpunye... mungkin silap aku juga sbb teranggap die lebih dr seorang kawan...n xpenah bgtau die tentang perasaan aku..
aku xnak ulangi kesilapan lame,, sbb trase sakit sangat bile hati kite dilukai jadi baik lah kite hanya memendam rase,,,dan cinta dalam diam
so specially dedicated to him.... semoga die bahagie ngan perempuan yang die cintai

Ungkapan kata selindung hasrat nan di hati
Andainya ditafsir terserlah makna yang tersembunyi
Renungan mata bukan pandangan biasa

Bertahun andai terjalin hingga waktu ini
Gurauan mesra menghiasi masa kita bersama
Semakin berputik perasaan ini

Kini baru ku sedari
Selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya
Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa

Mungkin tiada ku fahami
Tidak dapat ku nafikan lagi
Beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Kalimah cinta selongkar renungan dicipta
Mungkinkah dibiar terdampar
Kasih tak kesampaian
Naluri bisik bukannya dambaan cinta

Kini baru ku sedari
Selama ini kau ku sayangi
Andai bukan itu hakikatnya
Mengapa rindu yang ku rasa

Mungkin tiada ku fahami
Tidak dapat ku nafikan lagi
Beban rahsia kian membakar diri

Ikhlas ku nyatakan
Kau yang ku sayangi
Kau yang ku cintai
Walau tak mampu ku miliki

Ingin ku luahkan
Mungkin satu hari
Kan terbuka pintu hati
Dapat juga kau terima
Diriku akhirnya

cookies

I dreamt about him again…huhu ya allah, kenapalah bile kte nak lupekan die…makin lah kite teringat kat die…aduyaiiiii

Yeyeh finally I can decide when I wanna going back home to jb…this Tuesday I‘ll go to my cousin’s house in sepang to make some cookies for my abah.. I wonder why suddenly abah craving for cornflakes.. I’ve been alive for 20 years of my life and it was first time abah request to me to make cornflakes cookies for him. So this Tuesday my cousin n me will make a cookies for this becoming hari raya..

N we also plan to make our last min shopping at kl… I need to buy some scarf and brooch… I do plan to buy a scarf for my mom… if I get my loan before this hari raya bley lah do another last min shopping at jb…huhu but unfortunately I had called pt just now and they had told me that I can get my loan for another 14 days working days so it means after this hari raya….huhu

I really excited and counting forward to go back home…I want to learn to make some cookies so I can practice it at home…hehehhe so I can teach my mom to make some cookies for the next hari raya… n now we are in 22nd day of puase..Huhu n this Thursday I will going back home to jb with my bro, so I’ll get a chance to have air khatira for buke puasa..yippie..finally after spending two weeks here really make me sick of thinking of what to have for breaking fast n now I’m back to celebrate hari raya with my family…

Evn though I dun hav any kampong because I can’t consider going back to Singapore as my kampong…but I do excited to meet my all my relatives there… hari raya is the day where all my aunties, uncles and cousins are gathering up to celebrate…n to collecting duit raya…tue2 pon dpt agi k…hehehehhe so will updating soon for preparation for hari raya…

where is my spirit???

i want myself back..sum1 who had a spirit to study hard and achieve her dreams to become a successful human resource manager... semester 1, i woke up early in the morning just to do my revision and study...one weeks before test or quiz i had prepare for myself to sit for it maybe i had found my inspiration... semester 2, a bit lost because i had lost my inspiration but i recover back by doing work on group so that sum1 can push me to do tutorial or assignment...n i manage to improve my result... semester 3 even though its only short sem but it quite tension... so i just play around and having fun..and my result is quite bad even though it still 3 pointer but it was not satisfied...
but in this semester 4, no spirit to do assignment, no spirit to go to class , no focus and concentration...why why n why..where is my spirit??? where am i actually??? it just a body of mine is here but my soul is in the middle of nowhere...i dun want to lost focus becoz i'm afraid it will affect my studies then my exam result..but i dunno..i dun have an answer for that..lost in transaction..really..sometimes i have to pretend to everybody that i'm ok..i try to smile, laugh in front of people to show them that i'm ok but only god knows what exactly happen to myself... because i dun find my soul and spirit in myself...

09.09.09

nice day, nice date n nice month...huhu i know it just a no but tah lah dah jadi habit dr high skool dulu to wait for this special date to do sumthing special to remember of...huhu


but it seems that i dun find that lucky things today..so i'm not lucky enough k...huhu
actually i dun know why lately its really hard for me to stay focus and concentrate in everything i do..especially during lecture hour..huhu maybe i'm homesick.. two weeks jek kat cni dh drive me crazy...huhu i'm not pampering myself tp seriously i really miss my family...my abah, my mak, my kitten n everything at home...
every time pk what my mom do at home, what my kitten do..huhu i really miss that..everyday i counting days and write at my kuku malu white board to remind me how many days i'm going back home to jb..naseb baik this ramadhan tak rase sangat..sekejap jek dah 19 days kite puase..huhu another 11 days n only 2 days jek nanti dapat berbuke kat umah..


this sem sme lecture sme x nak kompromi bagi cuti awal for hari raya..so we have to wait until friday 17 sept to go back home...sedih jek kan...huhu tgk ah cuti extra ah lepas raye...huhu
another bape ari jek nak blek..n i'm counting patiently..huu

waiting

another one more week left for me to spend my days here in unisel before i'm going back to jb for hari raya...actually i dun know what exactly a date for me to go back home...can u imagine my lecturer still want to make a class on friday evening 17.9... its crazy man bile orang nak blek mcm tu..xkan petang raye kot...huhu dunno lah die sem it seems like hr student be da luckiest coz having an old timer lecturer with their old way to teach student....


its not so bad my days here in unisel..and last monday was the first time for me to go bersahur at cafe and it was fun..ramai orang macam berbuke puase..n i was surprised with guys especially bersahur makan mcm orang berbuke..mak ai banyak gile...huuhu



besides staying at home watching movies, open table, n masak2 we then going for a walk after berbuke so we berjalan2 ke pp menghirup udara segar n menikmati segelas air bandung..wahhhh seronok...bile lagi kan nak wat keje gile mcm tu..hahhaha

n now i really waiting patiently with my pt..bile nak masuk ni, i really need some money to pay my debt with abah n to buy books...huhu tension tension.....

finally

finally in this stressful semester 4 i found sumthing that might be interesting and can be my inspiration to study .... what is that?? for the first time i love the way this lecturer taught us for the subject business communication 3....i love this subject very much because it was actually one of my dream to further my study in mass communication course but I suddenly change to hr when i apply for in unisel...

talking about this subject for this semester finally i found the lecturer who makes this subject becomes more interesting and fun in class.. n she never fail to make me bored in class..seriously thumbs up for her for makes my friday worth it... enough for that

talking about my group assignment for subject industrial relation i have to find a company who has a trade union... n unfortunately i can rely on my abah because his company doesnt have a trade union..so I've thinking of my aunty who works in Malaysia airlines as one of the manager at hr department..so maybe i can seek for her help..huhu but it seems that I'm da only one who really 'excited" about that compares to my other two group membe yg wat dek jek....huh dunno what to say i just feel that i should complete all the task earlier because i know its not the easy task..we have to interview the hr manager and the union manager for that particular company.. n its not easy to set an appointment to meet them personally for an interview..n plus we have four assignment..two assignment individual and two group assignment..huhu n now i really needs my parents supports as a senior of hr manager to guide me in order for me to be a hr manager in the making...

and i really hope i can cope with all this and score for this semester because it seems that i found it as the stressful semester i ever had so far..maybe because i am already in year 2 so a lot of things that i"ve to learn for the future..i just hope everything will be fine.. ya allah, i really need a strength and patient to stay calm and settle all this matter smoothly and successfully

i just pretend

i know i just pretend to everybody that I am okay, I a m happy like nothings happened but I know i just lying to myself....

The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about.”

“When one's own problems are unsolvable and all best efforts frustrated, it is lifesaving to listen to other people's problems.”



dun worry be happy.. I'll be okay

freak out

i should say wow for the subject in this sem..huhu yesterday i just realised that i never search for the journal for my both subject Industrial relations and hr staffing n planning... learning this subject with miss erni really makes me feel tense and freak out..why i say it so..because we have two assignment,, for each subject..one literature review which is individual doing for an article, make a summary and present..huhu then we have another assignmnet which is by group...oh my gosh..hehehe tension siottt...
but i have to do it no matter what so just do it man.... n one more thing,, yesterday rajen gile gi library searching for the journal because first time show her my article kene reject.. so for the first time in my life gi library at night just to search for that particular article..then after penat merapu cari journal..one of my friend ajak gi jalan2 sbb dh lme x pusing unisel katenye..but one of my fren suggest to go karoeke near her house..but then suddenly change to karok at one of the shop at bb..and the karoeke shop was terrible man..hahha sadis sungguh...but diam x diam 4 lagu jugak aku lyan..hahahha nampaknye penyakit karoeke telah menjangkit ke badanku..huhuhu ni semue angkara bro n kak ros..huhu

see, trok kan keadaan kedai karoeke tu...

and tomorrow will be the day yang ade class for two favourite subject..hehhehe ir and staffing..huhu i think my hair will be smakin kembang ari ke ari kalo tiap2 ari mcm ni..huhuhuhu so dib be prepared babe...be strong bfore u freak out...xpenah rase mals nak gi kelas mcm ni but i feel it man in this semester

hate liar

i hate liar..i dun know why some people love to lie to us instead of just being honest to themselves...why i say it so..bcause i hate guys who self centered and only care about his feelings...but its ok its all right i accept it..dh biase pon...xpe ah redha maybe dh naseb badan slalu xkan penah rase bhagia when we talk about love..huhu emosional lak..dah dah cut the crap


emm now i'm back in unisel..emm so exhausted today...8am in the morning 1pm bru sampai pudu raya...jammed trok kat seremban because of an accident..so waiting for the next bus around 140 pm bru ade..huhu so around 3.50 pm bru lah smp unisel tercinta...


n guess what today x lah feel tension sngt pk ape nak makan untuk berbuke..because terpk nak masak sendri ari ni..huhu macarony goreng ...so after bahan2 dh diciap kan mule lah bermasak kol 7pm.huhuhu tung tang 715pm sme nye dh ciap n waiting for azan untuk berbuke...huhu n rezeki ari ni dapat rendang tok from my fren..huhu thanx dude..sdap sgt..makin selera ah buke ari ni..huhu

skrg musim ujan jek so puase this time xde ah rase penat sgt sbb sejuk jek...huhu
skrg bermule lah episod dib di kelas...huhu kene start rajen blaja ni.... n waiting for pt .. bile lah nak masuk ni?? org nak duit untuk beli buku..huhu dh pokai ni..kang kene makan mee maggy jek jawabnye..huhu