Tuesday, June 30, 2009


nape time kite suke orang tu n nak jumpe orang tu...mesti x kan jumpe??
tapi bile kite dh benci dan x nak tgok muke die lagi..time tu lah die asyik menjengul depan kite.... pelik kan hidup ni???? what eva it is..i'm stick with my decision for just letting him go from my life.
i know its hard to forget someone that we like but i have to hate him in order to forget him... furthermore, there is no use to remember sum1 that never think bout u..u just wasting ur i dun want to waste my time for something that invaluable..
people say no men no cry, but for me no cry for men.. not anymore..

Sunday, June 28, 2009


I'm tired of crying..crying for someone that does not deserves my tears... and I'm fighting with myself Trying to get you out of my head because i don't want to be stupid for thinking sum1 that never appreciate me..Tired of trying,Sick of crying,
Yeah I'm smiling,but inside I'm dying...only God knows what i really feel right now.. I'm letting him go from my life..because I'm sure there are no ways for us. we are not meant to be goodbye for u

Friday, June 26, 2009

i should let him go

Dalam manisnya madu
Terselit juga pahit hempedu
Madu manis padamu
Pahitnya sungguh bagi diriku

Suka atau pun tidak
Aku terus memendam rasa
Ingin sekali aku pergi bawa diri
Tapi ke mana arah
Rasanya sudah tak kuasa lagi
Persoalan inilah yang silih berganti
Hidup bersama bayangan saja
Oh indah hanyalah khabar
Bukan yang sebenar

Dendam di dalam diam
Bagaikan api membakar sekam
Senyum dalam paksaan
Sekadar lindung kedukaan ku

tbe2 tdgr lagu ni rase sedih sgt..i dun know y..because maybe right now i'm in dilemma confused dun know what really happen to myself..what i really feel..huhuh nape lah aku slalu rase mcm ni?????

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

love never found me

What Is Love?
What Is Love ?
and why does love never find me
Instead Broken Hearts Surround Me
And once again the wrong man found me
Saying he wouldn't hurt me
but in the end he didn't deserve me

What Is Love?
and why doesn't love know my name
I prayed to god that it would change
But true love never came

What Is Love?
I ask myself time after time,
why is love so blind,
or I shouldn't waist my time
I guess Broken Hearts are only made for me,
Because love finds everyone else but love never found me...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


emm back to unicell means back to open the books..huhu i have test this thursday and friday..erkh no time to play anymore..huhu
and now i was so tired and exhausted..a whole day walking, hiking around da kl will make my muscle cramp..huhu good exercise i think and now my migraine attacks me..huhu maybe because of the weather huhu.. i miss raining..three days raining in jb makes my life wonderful..huuuhu
i really spend my weekend this week, i went out with my schoolmate yesterday, shopping, chatting and taking picture..huhu really miss the moment..and i want to wish all my good friend in school congratulation and good luck in ur future..I'm proud and be hepy of u to further ur dgree in ur fav university with ur fav course..huhu last but not least to my cousin aliah, congrat for the hard and don't be homesick k..hahhahahha

i need a rest right now, my leg is pain, my head is ache..i think i should take a nap now..see ya

Sunday, June 21, 2009


the most happiest thing in my life is when I'm spending my time with my lovely family. eating ice cream together, watching tv, playing with my nephew,eating and eating again..hehehhe from laksa johor to asam pedas, then durian... today will be soto daging, tomorrow will be udang sweet sour..its all bout food... rugi ko abg jat x blek...hehehehhe and plus abah bwk blek manggis and rambutan dr kg..huhu
best gilerrrrrr....

emm and today is the father's day.' happy father's day abah.. i love u so much and u are the best abah in the world..the one who always beside me in my ups and downs and no one can replace u in my heart...i promise to work hard and become a successful human resource manager one day like u abah..hahahhaha.

p/s: dedicate the song untitle ' yang terbaik bagimu' from ada band to my abah...huhu

Yang Terbaik Bagimu - Ada Band

Thursday, June 18, 2009

s.w.e.e.t 20

i'm 20 right now... and i would like to thank to all the wishes and phone calls from my family, my colleague, my plkn buddies, my matrixs, my facebook friends, friendster and too many to list out..really appreciate it...may all my wishes will come true..insyaallah...n to my friend,who make a special card for me and who bought me a cake thank u so much...luv ya all so much..

i'm going back home to clbrate my bday with my family..i miss them damn much..huhu
turning to 20 maybe makes me think to be more matured right now and to take serious in everything i do... huhu n maybe i want to be more independent right now..survive in my own world...

emm i gtg..having a class in the wonderful morning until late evening from 8.30 am until 6 pm only..huhu. see ya

Tuesday, June 16, 2009


Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.

“They say when you are missing someone that they are probably feeling the same, but I don't think it's possible for you to miss me as much as I'm missing you right now”

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder.

“Can miles truly separate you from friends…. If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?”

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will

Missing you could turn from pain to pleasure, if I knew you were missing me too.

There are some of my favorite miss quotes..

huhu i don't know why i really miss someone right now.. seriously, I'm waiting for his call, sms and waiting him to go back soon..huhu ... huhu do i love him?? or it just a crazy feeling to miss someone that i know he will not missing me like i miss him ... what eva i don't want to hide my feelings anymore..but i don't want to put any hopes....i'm just following the flow...i have to be strong..huhuhu

Monday, June 15, 2009


it was so dull and boring when i spending my whole weekend in unicell... nothing much that i can do makan, tdo ,wat assignment tu pon mlas and thats it..huhu
bile xde keje malam2 gi ah lepak kat tasik tgk itik or bebek bak kate org indonesia.. bley gak release2 tension kan...huhu i dont think so i will spend my next weekend here,,, emm bley mati kebosanan..huhu

i really want to go back home to jb..homesick sudahhhh..emm almost two weeks x blek..wahhh emm plus i miss my family damn much..emm ye ah next Wednesday kan my special day..mesti ah i want to spend my special moment with my family.. who else that i have here besides my close friends....

emmm mintak2 ari ni x panas sangat coz today i'm fasting..huuhu alhamdulillah.. kene lah bayar hutang yang tertunggak kan..kang nanti kene denda lak..hehehhe
so k lah nk smbung tdo..huhu ngantuknye..huaaaaa

Saturday, June 13, 2009

don't ya

Don't u ever give up if u still want to try, dun ever wipe Ur tears if u still want to cry. dun ever settle for an answer if u still want to know. don't ever say u don't love him if u can't let him go

Friday, June 12, 2009


i don't know why i always feel inferior to myself whenever i think about love... I'm afraid to fall in love and be in love because i know i never get what i want when we talk about love.. I'm getting 20 next Wednesday but for about 20 years of my lives i never feel what is love about.. i mean love among guys and girls.. because every time i like or love someone, we were always not meant to be together... but i accept it because i believe everything happen for the reason and plus maybe i have to go through a lot of the wrong ones to get to right one. but sometimes i can't deny that i feel jealous when i look to my friends or other couple2 out there when they are crazy in love, spend time together or at least they have someone to share their feelings and to be care bout..but for me i only have my cousin aliah to share my feelings, problems and secrets...huhuhu

i always think, am i not good enough to deserve someone in my life???or maybe its not a right time for me to fall in love or be in love..i dont know..until now i still don't get the answer...maybe I'm too egoistic towards a guy or maybe I'm always hide my feelings and try to avoid the love becoz I'm afraid to be hurt...

my first love experience had make me frightened to accept love from any guy because i hate guys who give us a hope,love and care but whenever we admit that we love them he left us and said they do all sucks thing only for was really hurt and its really affect my daily life n until now i become trauma to fall in love because i thought guy only wants to make fun of gurls.. but i know i cant judge all guys like that... but from that moment i promise to myself that i will never let any guys to make fun of me and that's why i become extra careful to find love...but i believe love will come naturally and we cant force it..don’t find love, let love find you. That’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

owh no i think i'm in love

When u are together with that special someone
U pretend to ignore that person…
But when that special some1 is not around
U might look around to find them
At that moment u are in love …

Although there is some1 who always makes u laugh,
Your eyes and attention might go only to that special some1 then u are in love…

Although that special someone was suppose to have called u long back,
To let u know of their safe arrival, your phone is quiet.
U r desperately waiting for the call. At that moment u are in love...

If u are much more excited for one short mail from that special some1
Than other many long emails than u r in love...

When u find you as one who cannot erase all the messages
In your answering machine because of one message
From that special some1 u are in love…

When u gets a couple of free movie tickets,
u will not hesitate to think of that special some1 then u are in love…

U keep telling yourself “that special someone is just a friend”
But u realize that u can not avoid that persons special attraction
At that moment u r in love

While u are reading this page if some1 appears in your mind
Then u are in love with that person…

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

the climb by miley cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

yeah i must keep the faith, just got to be strong..huhu


emm 5.00 pagi-- bangun untuk sahur, cuma makan roti and oat jek..huhu.
sunyi jek bile bgun time2 ni, ye lah sme org ngah nyenyak gile tdo... ari ni better cket dr smlm dpt lah tdo nyenyak cket walaupon setiap due jam mesti terjage.. n as usual tdo sorg2 agi , my roomate tdo blek dpan kali ni ngan tilam2 die angkut skali... xpe ah wat la pe2 yg ley wat ko bahagie..hahahah
i'm ok tdo sorg2 pon xpe..tawakal n redha...

really hope hari ni x panas sangat, takot lak x larat... nseb bek class just 3 hours dr kol 9am smp 12. so time2 tu segar lagi kalo ptang jawabnye lembik ah nk ke kelas..
huhu.. sunyi jek sem 3 ni xde bende sgt nk wat... but now busy wat assignment coz next week nk kene submit and mgu dpn gak lah ade presentation..huhu tp xpe lah after that bley blek umah..

i want to go back home next week, to celebrate my bday with my beloved family... miss them so much..craving for my mom laksa johor.. hhuhu dh nk start dh homesick tu..but i know ni sme for my own goods.. experience for me xkan selamanya nk duk bwh ketiak abah n mak kan..huhu learn to be more independent..huhu miss independent..

emm k lah nk smbung tdo blek..jap gi nk ciap2 gi kelas plak...chow

Tuesday, June 9, 2009


gemini horoscope today-Sometimes it's healthy to be confused. It slows you down and makes you think. but i hate to feel that it makes me blank blur and don't know what to do...

emmm boring

nothing much that i can do today, no class for the whole day yippie but its boring i have to finish up my assignment today cos i want to go back home to clbrate my bday next week..hehehe spent time with my family...

and as usual i didn't get sufficient sleep last was damn hot in my room... and i have to take bath for about 5 times daily...
erkh global warming man... but bak kate my cousin ' ini baru panas di dunia belom lagi di akhirat'.... huhuhu she's right man..

i learn to be more patient here, emm anggap jek ini semue dugaan hidop kan...experience untuk kegunaan mase dpn..huhu k lah..nk gi libray..

Monday, June 8, 2009

hectic sem 3

emm my 1st day for sem 3 was so hectic and exhausted.. blur blur and blur.. i was really blur and sleepy inside the class.. and our group assignment was quite tough too..really have to work for was terribly hot here i need to take a bath for at least three times a day...
but one thing that i notice to myself is i feel like i miss someone right now..and i don't know why his face keep playing in my mind and i keep searching for him..oh no its not a good sign for me..huhu confuse confuse .....

sleeping disorder

erkhh i can't sleep last night, even though it was raining heavily but it still doesn't makes me wants to sleep .. i don't know why..maybe 5 weeks at home makes me feel uncomfortable to sleep here. and now I'm so sleepy but nothing much to do here..wake up in the morning, clean up my room and that's it. but one best thing staying in 4th floor is nice view that i can view from my window..i can see 'the beautiful scenery of unicell' huhuhuhuh but it still doesn't make me feel calm and peaceful here.. emm i'm going to have my lunch now..see ya

back to unicell

Arriving unisel 5.38 pm on Sunday 7th of june 2009, nothing much to say bout my new roommates, looks okay. But I dun know. She looks a lil bit weird; she doesn’t want to open a window n I was like having a ‘great time’ sauna and oven in my own room… I think I don’t need to put on diet because it’s already burn up my calories...Huahahuahauhauahau emm I can’t imagine I’ve to been through for about one month and the half. And it’s enough for me to make my life more terrible here..

I will start my lesson tomorrow and I have to cover up all chapters that I’ve left it all along when I went back to jb. And now I think I need to find my new resolution because I’ve read something just now ‘success will not come to you, you will get it when u know how to get it,n u have to work for it…

Oh my god, my migraine attacks me and I wonder why it always attacks me when I were in unicell..erkh its really pain and I think I should get some rest..

Saturday, June 6, 2009

my bday..

now its 6th of june 2009.. means that 11 more days for me to getting older..hehehe i'm turning to 20 this 17th of june..i just hope everything will be fine.. and i can cope with all my problem...i need to study hard to get a better result for this new sem... and achieve my dreams.. i cant wait to finish my study actually..i don't know why i feel so stressed and depress right now.. but i think its enough for me to take a rest and start working hard..god, please gimme me strength and spirit to cope with all this..

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

new spirit

emmm i dun have any mood to study actually..n i dun know what happen to myself lately..I've lose my focus to study and going back to unicell.. i dont know why, i dont have any spirit for this new sem..huhu ya allah, please give me a strength to cope with all this..i need a guide or an inspiration for this new sem... i dun want to lose focus..i have to work me plz...

Monday, June 1, 2009

holding on

whenever i feel down or out, i always listen to this song ' holding on' by taufik batisah..because it gives me an inspiration to keep holding on even though sum times we feel like our lives is unfair, because we must believe that god has create a path for everyone..

My world is closing in I`m so alone
The door is locked and nobody`s home
Desire is the key that I must own
Emotions get me losing control
I`m losing control

But I know
It`s the way that I must live
Even though
It`s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

I`m wishing I was somebody else
This world left me all by myself
Now why do they keep playing with my mind
Trying to break me down trying to make me blind
But I see

Cuz I know
It`s the way that I must live
Even though
It`s so unclear, so unfair
God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

God I know
There`s a path for everyone
I must believe and keep holding on

Never let my fears conquer me
Cuz I know in my heart what I can be
Holding on