its begin from the break up of relationship..all this while i've been thinking that we just break off from my relationship to give a break for two of us, to start all over again... and i never think to break up just like that..even though so many things happen to us, i try so hard to save our relationship...but it does'nt work..our break off relationship is getting dull and boring..i know, no matter how hard i try,if love is not there i cant force u to love me like before... i admit , i'm the one who did a mistakes and always be the one who always be the burden of u..i dun know how to make u happy or for u to feel love like any other gurl and thats why i'm the gurl who always make u feel bored and rimas like u always said to me.. enuff for that i dun want to talk more coz i have made up my mind to just letting u go..i know its no point for me to keep hoping for our relationship because i accept your reason that u dont love me anymore..i accept it.. if god only give me six month to be in relationship, to feel love, care and so on like i asks before..god has fulfill my dream to be in love even for only six month..and i believe in destiny... maybe we are not meant together..but i just want u to know that i never regret to be with u,u r my first guy who had a key to my heart..the one who i love and care most becuase u such a kind person who always there for me and the person who i always rely on..but i know i can't rely on u anymore..i have to find my own strentgh to be independent...thanx for everything and sorry for every single things that i've done to you... sorry, if our friendship will not like before... becuase i have to find my own space for myself to cope with all these...
early morning around 2.30 am at 29th of august, i received a called from my elder brother said that my mom was in icu..a day before i know that my mom is not feeling well but i never expected into that condition..at first i cant go back because i have four test in a week and other things to do but after i heard that news i just packed my stuff and take a bus to go back to jb..thanks to kak ros and kieryn who sent me to ktm sg bloh...i dun know how to describe my feelings at that time...it was second time for my mom admitted to the hospital..i'm the only daughter in my family so my dad and my bro depends on me to take care of my mom...
when i arrived in the icu, my mom was sleeping and doc said she had to do a dialysis. her condition was a bit serious compared to before...my dad n my bro was burnt into tears, me at frist who stay calm then burnt into tears when my cousin , uncle and aunty arrived to give us a support..only allah knows how my feelings like at that time...
but as time was passing after my mom had to been through 3 times dialysis, scanning and medication she is getting better but have to stay in icu around 8 days..and now she was transfer to normal ward...i just hope everything will be fine..pity to my mom who asks me everyday when she can go back home...pray that my mom will get well soon and back to normal life...
all this while, alhamdulillah i've become a stronger person and more patient.. alot of things that happen to me at one time but so far i manage to handle it..i believe in god because only allah know everything and i can rely on..thanx to my family and friend who text me and call me everyday to ask about my mom and give me a support... really appreciate it..to my relatives who bring us food for buka puasa and sahur all along the journey thank u so much..
along the weeks in hospital doesnt realise that hari raya is coming over..this year, no preparation of ketupat, kuih rya and so on...we are having our hari raya in the hospital..hehe dun mind about that..experience and obstacles...as long as my mom is getting better we dont mind to celebrate it in hospital...hehehhe
for all family members and friends wishing all of u Selamat hari raya aidilfitri maaf zahir dan batin...
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