no matter where we go, what we do as long as u r with me i 'm happy with that...i miss the old u..the one who always make me happy when i'm down, de one who lend his shoulder for me to cry on the one who always there in my ups and downs...
but now i feel that ,u still always beside me in everything i do, but i have missing something that i had before ..i dun know y..
i try to make it as nice and as sweet as old time..the one when we found that that we love each other...i love u but it seems that i lost it..i dun know where the sweet memories go...
now in ths 5th month almost everyday we had a quarrel, almost everyday we fighting for even the small matter... almost everyday i burnt into tears..i know and i dun blame u..most of it i de one who seek for the problem and seek for the trouble..i dun understnd u and so on...
i try search and implement de best way for our relationship but it doesnt work out..i've noticed it..i always be the one who ask to spent stime together, i de one who hold your hand but u dont, the one who looking for u but i dun know..i feel like missing..miss the old him..sory to say that..but u totally different right now..i dun know where the sweet guy go, the one who always make me smile..
sumtime gurl sulking because he want an attention from him but only anger that she get,,, and he seems do not even care of it.. i dun know...he think that i am self centred but i never be that...sumtimes i just want to be pampered and care..maybe i should not ask for more...yeah maybe too much dreaming sumtimes will only make u dissapointed
i just would like to say i want our relationship like before... sweet and lovely...even though we keep argue but it just a normal for the sweetness in relationship
but now he always say that he was bored in our relationship..i dun know what to do..i try to do some surprise but surely it will turn out badly,n then he wil thought that i'm only creating the story to make a surprise... i try to make it nice but it always happen oppositely..i dun know what to do..and when i'm blur the only things i can do is crying but who cares about that..he thought that i always think about myself when i'm crying..but for 20 years before whenever i'm in tense, dunno what to do..the only thinks that make me comfort with myself is by crying..crying seems to be the best way to release all that....
i love him so much, no words can describe how much i love him..i dun think what people might say, but ireally love him deep in my heart and from the bottom of my heart he will be the last...
i need a place to find myself, to know myself..i dun know..what else will be the best way for our relationship...i dun have any experience on it...and i still learning... and i still try and error... i just want to say i really miss the old him, the one that i know, the one that i attract of at the first moment i realise he is the one for me...i dun know where he go..i dun know where the sweetness of him gone away??
i just need to find it ,,. and i dun know how to begin????
